Last month I went through a difficult experience. I took some time off, and then started easing back into work. I am very appreciative of my clients who have been so patient with me while I have been working through my emotions, especially because it's been harder to do than I imagined it would be. People always say, "Throw yourself into work and it will distract you" but sometimes you just can't be distracted.
I do a lot of work at night after I put my daughter to bed, and there are many nights, like tonight, where it's just too quiet and I just can't help but look around and let my mind wander. Soon it's been an hour, then two, then it's so late that I can't focus on work anyway, and I'm back at square one. People also say it's important to "process things" or "be sad when you need to be sad" and so I let myself go there.
I feel extremely behind, underwater, in the weeds, or whatever you like to call it. Digging myself out of a hole?
That's about all I have to say I guess. I'm trying.
In the mean time my daughter has turned 3 years old and I have taken her to see Santa, twice.
|Olive on her 3rd Birthday|